It was me. I was the one to blame. It was all my fault that I got pregnant. I tried to trap him so he would stay in my life forever and ever. That was what my boyfriend had told everyone when I got pregnant.
“I am proud that one day I will eventually have that baby and be able to support and comfort my child in the way that I want.”
I was humiliated, sad, and frightened that now I was going to go through this whole process alone. Of course I was not ready for any of this, but I knew for sure that my life was not ready for a baby. I was going to have an abortion and I was going to have the right to choose this option for myself. It’s not a fun decision for anybody to make nor is it an easy choice but it is an option that has helped a lot of women in certain circumstances. I was one of those women who needed help.
I am not heartless, a coward, or a sinner. I am human with feelings and life problems just like anyone else. I was very sad after my abortion for many reasons, one being that I had fallen into the belief that maybe it was my fault and now I have to live with this forever. I got sad every time I saw a bumper sticker about “God is watching” or “Abortion is wrong.”
I am strong, powerful, and fearless now. I have taken my experiences and changed my life. I am more motivated at school and in my career, I am confident and open about my abortion, and I don’t hide behind walls from people who tell me it’s wrong. I am proud that one day I will eventually have that baby and be able to support and comfort my child in the way that I want and that I will be able to.
Be strong and be ready, it is not your fault and you are not to blame. You are going to be okay.